If it was any other day l would have been agitated, broke a nail or even stormed off the walls of my mind but not today, today l am a product of life’s experiences. l am a woman aware of the force in the world of things that one can’t control and of things that one can change. I have been put in the middle of a blazing fire, roasted and scotched just like gold, l am now refined. The wise once said “if you want to be Gold, be prepared to be cut and burned. Refinery is a bittersweet process”
The things in life that we cannot change teaches us so much more about ourselves than we realise. We rarely notice the good that comes out of us through those tormenting moments when you have a battle raging inside of yourself and you barely can maintain to keep the breath going in and out of your body. Take a moment and think of a time in your life when you were pressed to the wall with nothing to do to change the situation, what resolution were you left to? Acceptance, You had to look deep into yourself and accept that you are powerless to what now is your present circumstance, then you had to also tolerate everything that came with it and that is not an easy thing.
Patience is the mother of all virtues. Patience not just on other people and things but also patience on yourself because life has these laws that can’t be changed, laws to make you wait , to test your heart and see how far your mind can stretch. Through it all you must maintain composure and keep all of you levelled up. The more you resist to look into yourself and find patience, the more things happen to you to force it out of you and most of those things come with pain. Pain is not all bad, it is an opportunity to grow and see the greater side of you.
If it was any other day l would have broken down and cried my eyes out. But today l sat down had a cup of tea, stroke a conversation with myself. I saw how amazingly clever the past is, the past comes to only cripple you and rob you of a beautiful moment if you get manipulated by its stroll , however it can also serve you well depending on how you use it. It will remind you of your failures so that you may take your eyes of what you have now become which is a conqueror, a hero to yourself, an achiever and a beautiful rock of greatness. So l took a sip of tea and relaxed a bit and understood that every day of our lives we must forgive ourselves constantly because we turn to be too hard on ourselves. I looked at the past with a bit more smile because the woman am sitting with is only here because yesterday existed and that is a worthy cause of the past. Forgiveness not only freed me from my own mistakes but it delivered to my eyes lessons and allowed me to freely open myself again to what today and tomorrow will bring.
I shed off the skin of many years,
Stood beside chains of memories,
Sat with a goddess l admired,
My heart awakened to the wisdom of her calmness,
Something about the glow of her soul.
Then finally l understood it all.
If it was any other day, but today it was not that day,
Today l am the product of my experiences.
