Thursday, January 29, 2015

Fierce as a tiger.


If you are  a woman that has laid herself out as a doormat for a man, that's  what you will be forever. Most man see woman as temporary parking spot only there to stay for some time and leave. Love yourself so much that you refuse to be degraded to a level that insults your worth as a woman. Most woman be out here staying with a man that continuously cheats and she says "who else isn't cheating, if l leave him do l seriously think there is a better man out here who doesn't cheat " mind you those words coming from just a girlfriend. Women don't ever try to take in the roles of a wife while you are still a girlfriend. Who in the world told you that you must just sincerely accept that your man cheats, be okay with it and think one day he will stop and be faithful with you? You are slowly digging your own grave for he will give you a disease that will end your life. Are we afraid so much of being alone? If a man has cheated before, won't it be just as easy for him to cheat again? The mere fact that he could lie calmly in the arms of another woman, have all that pleasure and still come back the next day to face you and say he loves you , doesn't that raise up the alarm that maybe this man does not know what he wants in his life, maybe you are not everything that he needs hence he feels the need to go out and get that from another?


It always seem like a fairy tale you are lost in when you tell another woman that in the absence of a wrong man, you will feel the presence of a right one approaching. He will be  unrecognizable cause we often have our eyes on the bad ones. I have noticed that the kind of a man you attract in your life is pressed entirely on how you see yourself. You will have  the man you deserve when you treat yourself the way you deserve. To be able to raise your finger and say this is way below me does not mean you are too independent it just shows you know that life is too short to be anything but a goddess. Yes sometimes you stay with someone because you see the capabilities of a man he can be, because he is a dreamer, but what's the use of a dreamer that never gets anything done, all he do is dream, dream and dream some more.

I have been accused of being too stubborn, too choosy but what can l say than let them think that? I am just that girl who will not step off her stilletoes unless I am convinced the stretch would be worth it. Young girls still go around and get aroused by a mere compliment but a woman appreciates respect and being honoured and that merely has nothing to do with money. Would l be much of a control freak if l say a good woman must be so involved in her man's life and a man be so involved in her woman's life that it leaves no vacancy and time for anyone else of an opposite sex to occupy? Yes l can be a freak any day of the week but as for every second of the day I am as fierce a tiger.

It is good for anyone to have standards and only compromise them if the other party is meeting you half way. Let's stop giving away our happiness to someone who barely recognize the sacrifices. I don't want to be out staged on my own centre stage.

"The rare that makes our world complete, we only notice that they not there when our eyes feel the thirst of a perfect picture."



Sunday, January 25, 2015

Self Preservation

One thing l know for a certain is that without doubt, l am a precious Cargo being shipped between Oceans. Yes the waves come in different sizes, the weather move from better to worse in seconds yet l stand floating firm across the unknown horizons.

We should never rely on  second chances to do things right. At times the only time you have is that only time. I cannot apologise for being happy and aiming to keep myself happy. I am unapologetic about million dreams l have daily, the goals l challenge myself against and the falls that come with it all. I have loved many so dearly and most never deserved it but Lord knows they needed it and now its time to love me unconditionally with no strings attached. For l understand the depth of love l need for myself,  l take full responsibility in loving myself and not expecting another to fill in the space that was never meant for another , that's why it is so hard to find someone who will love you in the exact range you need cause that's not their  responsibility.

I have lived to make a change to lives while l left mine unattended and l no longer want to be a passanger shaproning others to their destinies. The unconditional giving l don't give out of pity, l give because l know the life l have imparted in them will be the strength to the next individual that will own my gift. Weather you will understand the power in them will not make them cease to be powerful.

I have shared with many the fruits of faith, mostly its the seeds l had given them and they never realised. For years they ridiculed my faith in their lives yet l hope they forget me one day and remember God most. I have dealt my card, had my turn and no longer can answer to the past weather good or bad. I forgive the past and allow it to remain where it is as it serves no purpose where l am now. Even the mysteries that caused havoc and pushed me over mountain cliffs with their temptations, the zillion question marks that still come back haunting me, l also refuse to be the victim and culprit of their seduction. My time no longer allows for worries unless revelations knock on the truth carpet and its fate l can't deny.

I deserve the best cause l am the best. Its not my ego talking but the pride l find in a breath such as mine. Its the joy l celebrate for me, by myself. Its the boundaries l never had for myself that now am glad l never made because this very same reflection would have been unrealistic with their existance. To say so much about self love is not selfish but self preservation. 

Self love is the beginning of true love and the discovery of real happiness.