I am glad you never took any of my love.

I used to want you to love me back so much, wished l could hear you say l am all you been longing for,  instead l just found silence behind my "l love you's".
I thought then l wasn't enough for you, not the kind of a person you will want to see forever with but now l realize it was you who never was enough for me,
it was you who never fitted my criteria but l just had faith in the glimpse of a better man you could be.

They used to say l could do best but l stuck by you. I saw the world in a better position by you then l wondered why does my love appear so desperately-made.
l had tons of dreams about you, you ridiculed me silly every time l told you,  unaware that those were the warning tokens from heaven that you of all mankind lest  deserved me. They drew me closer to you even when they meant to cut down the cord between me and you.

l let many righteousness men pass by all because l was honouring the message in the dream,  the heart that rarely shifted every time my mind reminded it there was nothing to wait for. You never took time to know the devine soul this skin is covering yet l don't blame you as many wise men have indeed lost zillion diamonds while holding them in their arms but mistaken them for rocks.
Only now when l look at everything from a distance do l realize that l frightened you, the fact that you could not understand the type of a person l am, that even your powerful presence felt weak around me as l rarely allowed you to have your way without explanations.

Many nights l found myself praying about you, praying for you, praying that l could understand this connection between us then l saw you walk right away leaving me while on my knees. You should have told me l was saying empty prayers for l am sure my words could have healed one soul right now. I felt you were a part of me but l was wrong because you still need to find God and yourself. The world you live in is full of delusions, one day you will cry with none to hand you a shoulder to lean on. l am not wishing you darkness but l am glad l don't have to deal with you in my life.

Was l stupid to text you all the time only to have you reply after hours, deliberately telling me off but l kept making up excuses to why you can't really text me back but hey when you love someone you just got to make time, so now l see love was never part of this between you and l.

You see all that you mean to me today does not make sense to you right now because you got your head wrapped around your world but the day you get to look at it through a magnifying glass the centre of it all will be misplaced.
Don't come looking for me even if love has forced its way through you because l know you do not in the lest deserve my attention, my prayers, my hope, my dreams, even my kindness.

The mercies of love has drawn me to an overflowing river that has surrounded me with all l need, this one has transforming dreams that has clearly cleared the vision ahead. l am glad you never took any of my love.