Self Preservation

One thing l know for a certain is that without doubt, l am a precious Cargo being shipped between Oceans. Yes the waves come in different sizes, the weather move from better to worse in seconds yet l stand floating firm across the unknown horizons.

We should never rely on  second chances to do things right. At times the only time you have is that only time. I cannot apologise for being happy and aiming to keep myself happy. I am unapologetic about million dreams l have daily, the goals l challenge myself against and the falls that come with it all. I have loved many so dearly and most never deserved it but Lord knows they needed it and now its time to love me unconditionally with no strings attached. For l understand the depth of love l need for myself,  l take full responsibility in loving myself and not expecting another to fill in the space that was never meant for another , that's why it is so hard to find someone who will love you in the exact range you need cause that's not their  responsibility.

I have lived to make a change to lives while l left mine unattended and l no longer want to be a passanger shaproning others to their destinies. The unconditional giving l don't give out of pity, l give because l know the life l have imparted in them will be the strength to the next individual that will own my gift. Weather you will understand the power in them will not make them cease to be powerful.

I have shared with many the fruits of faith, mostly its the seeds l had given them and they never realised. For years they ridiculed my faith in their lives yet l hope they forget me one day and remember God most. I have dealt my card, had my turn and no longer can answer to the past weather good or bad. I forgive the past and allow it to remain where it is as it serves no purpose where l am now. Even the mysteries that caused havoc and pushed me over mountain cliffs with their temptations, the zillion question marks that still come back haunting me, l also refuse to be the victim and culprit of their seduction. My time no longer allows for worries unless revelations knock on the truth carpet and its fate l can't deny.

I deserve the best cause l am the best. Its not my ego talking but the pride l find in a breath such as mine. Its the joy l celebrate for me, by myself. Its the boundaries l never had for myself that now am glad l never made because this very same reflection would have been unrealistic with their existance. To say so much about self love is not selfish but self preservation. 

Self love is the beginning of true love and the discovery of real happiness.