Never knew how to give up!

I had always been a child that had her mind up the clouds. Living in a world that saw magic and saw nothing impossible. Here today l am, looking at the journey lt has been and understand in all its depth that every little moment has sharpened me to what l am today.

I had to learn to calm myself down in the mist of a very stormy smoke and breath through the pores on my skin. I never knew how to give up  even when there wasn't much to look for. To learn to dance to sounds of laughter of those spectators to your life when you have fallen and must do the walk of shame, to look at yourself once more and fall inlove with the flaws and the failures, to wear your dignity with pride even if it is the only thing covering your nakedness. I have learnt.

I am an African child, raised to raise the bars and not stay under the boundaries. In the streams of my veins daring to dream is a daily dish that must be endulged in. There has been days when swallowing was so hard and could barely keep eyes open and bones off the ground but all the time,  the journey reminds you that it is far where you come from and nearer where you are going so giving up is not part of your vocabulary.

I couldn't believe how easy it is to find yourself standing alone while in between a crowd of millions. When literally all the people you knew were besides you suddenly disappear in front of your eyes when you need them. The importance of knowing that you are alone in this world , believing in yourself is the first most command towards yourself because people will leave mostly when you need them. They will lie when you need the truth and sometimes they will kick you down when you have already fallen and still jump over you as if they do not see you.

I never knew how to give up. I always felt subjected by my own internal loyalty to keep at it. I am thankful of such characters because they keep me grounded and alive with possibilities. Life is not for the faint-hearted. A friend once said you must always know when to pause, reboot yourself and restart so you stay focused in life and indeed he spoke the truth. Be stingy about your time, your energy and presence, only share with those that matter to you.

I am just a girl with enough power,
Mind guard on steroids,
The soul rages much for the uncertainty,
Walking on Faith destiny is already assured.
Daddy said keep going, have patience but keep going.
Don't know what giving up is.
Fairytales exists, search for them
Perhaps they lie within your temple
Where the possibles resides.